Decisions, decisions.

The past week has been a tough one for me spiritually. After much soul searching and prayer, I have decided to leave my church family of almost 3 years and transition to a new one. I almost feel as though I've been through a divorce (again). The weirdest part is that I feel like I can breathe again, almost as though staying where I was had been smothering a part of my spirituality. I know I made the right decision, but knowing I will no longer be seeing close friends once or twice a week (sometimes more) is going to be difficult.

On the positive side, I met a neighbor. For those who know me well, I may seem outgoing, but to let someone into the personal side of my life takes quite a bit. I'm pretty sure the reasoning behind this part of my personality is because of something from my past which, thankfully, has finally found its place in my life...the past.

Forgiving myself has occurred many, many years ago. I find I still hold onto some of the old hurt on occasion to the point where I would get pulled back into those old feelings, guilt and pain. Sorry to say it has taken me well over 10 years to get to this point, but hey, getting there is half the journey, right?

While I do not know if anyone else has read this blog as of yet, I will continue to write in the hopes at some point there will be a following of sorts. Wishful thinking, perhaps, but it could happen.

For now, I must get ready for church and then the final Nascar race of 2008. My how time flies.